Thursday, March 26, 2009

Looking for L<3VE

What do women look for in men?

What qualities do we search for to fill that void?

I googled this very question. Not that I don't already know the answer. I'm a single women. I had THAT check-list at 14! Along with the castle and horse drawn carriage.
I was just curious if they were different from mine. Nope!, all the same.


Someone who won't leave my side when the storm hits. A Shoulder to cry on. A Companion who will give me the shirt off their back. A Protector that will lay down Their life for mine. A Love that is forgiving, understanding, patient, true. Someone who makes me feel free & alive. Just the very presence of Him entering the room, makes it shake. A Love so deep, no matter how you search your heart, you can't deny it. A Prince that never stops believing or encouraging me. A Love worth fighting for.
As I accumulated my "wish list", I started to notice something heart warming & amazing. I did have this perfect Someone. He has been right in front of my eyes for so long. A Prince who waited until I was ready to love Him, because He loved me already. Jesus was all that, plus so much more. I yearned for a Love that I already was given. All I had to do was open up and receive it. When all others left, He was still there. To pick up the pieces and put me back together.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (New Living Translation)

4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Cleaning out the closet.

"I'm gonna need you to step away from the baggage please"


Tomorrow is gone, so say goodbye to the baggage of your past.

The past is called, just that, for a reason. It isn't suppose to follow with you into your future. It is time for Moses to passed away and Joshua to stepped into the Promise Land. The old is changing. It's a NEW THING. I feel it, don't you? Something stirring in my spirit, letting me know a change is taking place. A para dime shift. The birthing pains are passing, bringing forth a NEW LIFE. I'm cleaning out my closet. LETTING GO of the old, worn-out, out-of-date, fashions of my past. You know, the styles that really never seem to fit right. BYE, BYE! See, for God to refill my closet with the clothes he has made "just for me", I have to "LET GO" of my PAST. So lets see what we will be letting go of today...

Unforgiven Grief Sorrow Condemnation

Self Pity Depression Anxiety Bitterness

Lies Darkness Hate

Selfishness Lack of Love

In the very back of the closet I even found the fence that Satan had tried to put around my dreams. The fence that told me I wasn't good enough. I was a nobody, and weak. Enabling me to push through with God's purpose. Almost convincing me that it was about RELIGION and not a RELATIONSHIP. Lip service and not what was in my heart.

Bye, Bye Letting go isn't always easy. We hang on thinking we could "wear" it later. Knowing when that time comes, it doesn't fit right. It really never did to begin with.

Letting go takes Faith, obedience & submission. Obedience is better than sacrifice and realizing that it isn't about you, and never was, is the beginning of submission.

12 I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not yet achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

Philippians 3:12-14 (New Living Translation)

Natalie Gore "Good-bye yesterday"

Sunday, March 1, 2009

A Mother's LOVE

Today we celebrated my mother's birthday. It was such an awakening. A blessing. For years I took moments like these for granted. I was surrounded by family. Family that I know loves me. Good, bad, ugly. They still love me. I seen smiles in the faces of my love ones, that I never took notice to before. It's the little things that you wish you would have noticed more of.
I'm so thankful for such a strong "Cord". (Eccl. 4:12). They are firm believers in P.U.S.H (Pray until something happens).

Looking at the love of a mother made me think about the love of God. How amazing is it to know that we have a Heavenly Father that loves us. Good, bad, ugly. A Father that seen all the valleys we went through and still stood beside us. An Abba who will never leave or abandon us. No matter how much we have disappointed. Thank you God, for a love that us mere humans can never fathom. Thank you for seeing my beauty amidst all the ashes.

What love.

Could you love that much?
A friend? A Spouse? A Child? Could you love someone so much. That no matter what they have ever done, you will still always love them the same? If your spouse was unfaithful? Could you forgive and forget? That's true love. If your child stole from you. Could you still love them the same as the lil' 5 year old prince they once was? What if your little football star turned into a drug dealer? One late call, after another, "Come bail me out". Would your love waiver now? God's never will. His love is that BIG. BIGGER. Think about that. Really think.

Could you love that much?